Tonight...

Tonight... i realised.

I realised that even if you put in effort to phrase your words nicely so that people won't take offense, there will still be some people who do.

I realised that even at the point where you're merely explaining and not even attempting to defend yourself, there will still be some people who want to trample all over you until you surrender to something that isn't even your fault.

I realised that the person who isn't supposed to be hurting you is the one that hurts you the most.

And. I realised. I still need a proper way to vent. Without hurting myself.


I'm lying. I realised all this ages ago. I don't know if this is perseverance or plain stupidity.