Despair.

There's no point in calling out for help. The only person who can help, is me.

I'm becoming what i was in secondary school again. Maybe even worse. The miserable, self-hating girl with low self-esteem. I don't want to be like that. It was so difficult changing myself over my poly years and now i just sank back to what i was before. Just like that.

But i can't help it.