It may not be the holidays anymore but...

Since it was a free day for both of us yesterday, we decided to take a walk around town. Neither of us had been having a very good time prior to this, and it was really nice to spend some time relaxing in each other's company.

I really enjoyed it. Thanks Baby :)

INTP

10 months ago, I was a ISFP.

Now,

You are:
- very expressed introvert
- moderately expressed intuitive personality
- slightly expressed thinking personality
- slightly expressed perceiving personality

Personality Types

"First of all, Friedman and Rosenman came up with two types of personalities based on observable behaviors.

The first type of personality was called Type A and it was characterized by:
1. an intense drive to achieve one’s goals
2. over-competitiveness in all areas of lives
3. constantly seeking for recognition and improvement
4. involvement in many activities at once which had deadlines to meet
5. tendency to rush things
6. astonishing physical and mental alertness.

After that, the researchers came up with Type B and its characteristics were the opposites of Type A personality. Therefore, Type B people are characterized by a lack of: drive, ambition, sense of urgency, competitiveness and involvements which have deadlines."

Here.

I give up.

If you don't want to hear me out, I'll never talk to you again. I hope you're happy.

You never gave me a voice.

So...

My hair is blue.

So this holiday,

I did many things. One of the few times I wasn't just rotting at home playing games like I usually would have. Since it's coming to an end now, i'll just look back and sum up all of the things that happened.

- First Fruits+boyfriends gathering at Ruby's.
- Holidayed in Bangkok and got like a year's supply of clothes.
- Also got a few contacts for supply of whatevers :)

- Bridesmaid for Dorena's wedding.
- Boat ride and Lazarus Island with family and J. Cool shit.
- Sneaked into Bukit Timah railway on a rainy day and took a video for J there.
- Clubbed and didn't hate it.

- Met up with poly friends and had dinner with them.

- Went shopping with Yuxiu.

- Cycled from Changi to East Coast with the bros, then KTVed.
- Fell sick. Lol.
- Watched shows and movies.
- More specifically, Hana Yori Dango 1 & 2, and Modern Family.
- And Tron, Confessions, Singing In The Rain, Juno, Inglourious Basterds, How To Train Your Dragon, and Burlesque.
- Played Dungeon Hunter 2.
- Light painting with lightsticks.
- Flourished. Quite a bit.
- Queued for bubble tea. Tons and tons of times.
- Wrote a letter to the future.
- Prepared J's birthday present :D
- Juste Debout.

And of course there were other times where we just went out and walked around. Practically spent every single moment with J. I'll miss this holiday now that school's starting and because it's the last holiday i'll ever have, but oh well. I'm glad it happened and that I made full use of it :)

Reminder to self.

Stop.

Definitions.

o·blig·ing   /əˈblaɪdʒɪŋ/ [uh-blahy-jing]
–adjective
1. willing or eager to do favors, offer one's services, etc.; accommodating: The clerk was most obliging.
Well, fuck you.
o·blige   /əˈblaɪdʒ/ [uh-blahyj]
verb, o·bliged, o·blig·ing.
–verb (used with object)
1. to require or constrain, as by law, command, conscience, or force of necessity.

I won't lie.

Walking around feeling drugged and numb to everything is... kinda nice.

Numb is good.

Quick summary.

Spent the better part of the week being sick. Stayed at J's since I figured no one would be home to help me if I went back anyway.

Flourished a lot on Sunday night after family dinner. Nearly died trying to figure out the rainbow spring. But anyway, it was quality time spent with J even though we weren't even talking much :)

The next day we decided to go explore the Bukit Timah railway. Despite the fact that it was raining. We were wearing ponchos to keep ourselves dry, so you can imagine how ridiculous we looked. When we reached the place, there were 'No Entry' signs and stuff like that. We went ahead anyway. It was scary and awesome at the same time. At one point, a train actually came past and we had to hide behind some logs.

I think that's how I started falling sick because that night I started getting a fever. Plopped in bed after watching Singing In The Rain with J and his brother, then watching J do some woodwork.

Pretty much stayed that way for the next two days. Thank goodness J was there taking care of me :) Even though he was bored to death.

Went out with the bros today. For the first time ever, we had lunch at Changi Village [instead of dinner] and then rented bikes to cycle to East Coast. The 8km stretch on Changi Coast Road was a fitch, but having friends for company really helps. The weather was beautiful too; i'm glad it didn't rain at all.

Had Koi at Parkway after that :D For some reason the two decided it would be a good idea to walk two streets down to Teo Heng KTV and sing for the next 3 hours.

I have no voice now.

Had dinner at 85 market ^^ It's awesome because today we ate at both of the places that we always have our dinner gatherings at :)

Ah. Tired now. Just a few more things to do before I go sleep :)

Oh, Mom.

Over dinner.

Mom: You better eat more protein.
J & I: -stare-
Me: ...If you say so.
J & I: -die from trying to stifle laughter-

Quotes from the past.

I was looking through a bit of my old stuff when I found this little notebook full of Chinese words in my own handwriting. Turns out I was writing down quotes from shows that I was watching years ago. I don't remember what shows they were though.

Here are some of the better ones.

- 我怕自己一旦依赖一个人，最后那个人还是离开。我不要伤心，我不要绝望。
- 我真的改变了吗？跟以前不同吗？改变了，便不是我了吗？是坏事吗？我... 后悔吗？
- 追求快乐是应该的，根本不需要找理由。
- 我不恐惧爱情，我恐惧的是爱太深了，以后带来的心碎。
- “我真的不知道世界上还有什么诺言是真的。” “但是你不能因为这个世界上那些伤害你的人而对其他人失去信心。” “那是因为你没有受过伤。”

We're on a boat!

Awesome day.

J and I were light painting until about 4 in the morning. Will probably upload photos soon.

Then had to wake up early in the morning to go for the boat ride. No idea why my mom/Aunty Jo decided to take us. It was a smallish yacht that provided a pretty bumpy ride, but that was what was awesome about it. Went to Lazarus Island, one of the Southern Islands that people can't usually go to.

Lunched at Changi Village and had the huge Milo Dinosaur. Ah.

Came back and knocked ourselves unconscious for several hours. Then went back to J's with the intention of heading out to club. Ended up playing with the LED light helicopter thing, trying to catapult it up to his house. Didn't quite succeed, and it ended up in the pool. J had to go retrieve it. [He looked really sexy when he took off his clothes really quickly and dived into the pool - He told me to write this.]

Clubbing plans were called off.

Watched the remaining of Hana Yori Dango season 2.

I know no one's reading. That's why these're all so boring.

Record 2.

Spent most of the day doing stuff for my potential little start-up. Like Ruby said, the first few are bound to fail, so why not start failing asap so I can get them over with.

Plans aren't concrete yet so i'll probably blog about them sometime later.

Or not.

Record.

Went out to watch Confessions with J and his friend Kevin. And his friends. Then went to town for a while. Spent some time at SS and saw Michael at Danz People heh. Thinking of whether I should go take House again.

Then came back and watching Hana Yori Dango season 2. Part of it, anyways.

Moar later.

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Came home so I could do some stuff of my own. Like waxing my legs and stuff. Also got a haircut, had photos printed and checked out some potential suppliers. Had dinner at home, so I saved food costs :)

And wrote. Writing really helps me express and feel my emotions properly. It's nice to stop being numb to everything, but makes it more difficult to protect myself. Oh well.
Because feelings include hate.
I just tapped the spacebar twice in an attempt to type a fullstop.

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One of the potential suppliers replied me. I'm kinda excited that i'm finally doing something about the plan I had.

We're getting ourselves drunks. Jboyfriend, Jbro and myself. Jboyfriend and I were going to go clubbing, but I got into a fight with my mom and we ended up coming home. He stayed with me even though he had really wanted to go clubbing. Thanks baby.

Just keeping track.

Today I got my phone fixed. Had Koi. Watched Hana Yori Dango with J the whole day.

Yesterday we had lunch at his grandparents' as usual, dinner with my family as usual, and watched the first part of Hana Yori Dango and a bit of Goong.

The day before was all spent on my cousin's wedding.

The 5 days before that were in Bangkok.

Alright done.

Marriage.

I just came back from my cousin's wedding. She's the first in our generation to get married, and two other cousins and myself were the bridesmaids. That meant we had to wake up uber early, which wouldn't have been much of a problem if the night before hadn't been New Year's countdown.

It was fun I guess. It was the first time I felt so connected to a wedding. As in, the other weddings I attended before were of people I wasn't really close with. This time though, I felt it.

Congratulations Dorena and Alex! Have a blissful marriage :)