F.

If you can't differentiate a daughter and a worker, I'm not gonna bother differentiating a father and a stranger.

-

Turns out I really throw/slam anything I'm holding when I'm pissed. Most recent victim: Laptop.

Oh, Mom. Vol. 2.

Over dinner again.

J: -puts a piece of extremely hot tofu in his mouth without realising-
Everyone else: o_o
Mom: Oh no you poor thing! -turns to me- Quick! Help him blow!
Jbro and I: -facepalm-
Me: You should probably just spit that out. As opposed to me blowing you like my mom said.

I give up.

If you don't want to hear me out, I'll never talk to you again. I hope you're happy.

Oh, Mom.

Over dinner.

Mom: You better eat more protein.
J & I: -stare-
Me: ...If you say so.
J & I: -die from trying to stifle laughter-

Marriage.

I just came back from my cousin's wedding. She's the first in our generation to get married, and two other cousins and myself were the bridesmaids. That meant we had to wake up uber early, which wouldn't have been much of a problem if the night before hadn't been New Year's countdown.

It was fun I guess. It was the first time I felt so connected to a wedding. As in, the other weddings I attended before were of people I wasn't really close with. This time though, I felt it.

Congratulations Dorena and Alex! Have a blissful marriage :)

A random funny.

Yesterday at SAFYC with the family.

Mom: -points to a table on an isolated floating platform on the sea- We're having our dinner there.
Me [to J]: You're gonna have to swim over there k.
Mom: Jaspas, can you swim?
J: Yeah.
Mom: Ah. What else can you do? [She meant like water sports and stuff]
Jbro and me: Flourishing.

Lol.

Bleah.

Drinking with Jbro and Jboyfriend. Having weird talks lol.nIthink we're drunk loll.

Unproductive Sunday, mostly.

Had lunch with paternal aunts whom I haven't seen in a while. They updated me about my dad and told me to spend some time with him now that he's back for like a week.

Anyway. Baby came over for dinner :) And he brought char siew lol thanks Baby. Before dinner we were so bored that we went to the extent of playing Neopets games. Then my brother came back and suggested LF2 and AuSEA, both of which I downloaded and am probably gonna remove like tomorrow or something.

Jbro and Jboyfriend don't get mixed up when I call them anymore. Now it's when my mom or Aunty Jo calls, "Justin!" and it's always the wrong one that responds. It still amuses me a little.

Went out for a walk with the boys, then came back to our void deck and sat there and talked with Jbro's friend/our neighbour. Jboyfriend and I laughed until we couldn't laugh anymore and could only sit there smiling weakly.

Reduced my Sunday blues much :) Thanks boys.

Soul Funky to look forward to tomorrow!

Lol.

I watched it fall apart right before my eyes.

And now i'm still sitting back and continuing to watch.

:DD

Over sms.

Mom: Are you having dinner tonight?
Me: Yes. Just not at home.
Mom: Very funny.

-

Had a wonderful time last night, even though it wasn't much. It's all the little things that count :)

Because they fly.

Mom: -enters the bathroom and discovers a baby lizard- Why, hello baby lizard! -observes it's not moving- Is it dead or alive?

Me: I don't know. It's been there since afternoon.

Mom: -gets tissue to remove lizard-

Lizard: -starts running away-

Mom: Don't run! I'm trying to help! Do you want to live or die?

Lizard: -stops running and finally gets caught-

Mom: -picks it up and throws it out the window-

Me: . . .

...

It's difficult being a good... everything all at the same time.

Mom just snapped at me because she hasn't been seeing much of me.

I'm having family dinner tomorrow. Nobody touch me.

...

Every year, on this day, I wonder whether I should.

Every year, on this day, I never.

I wish I had a photo to post up. But I don't.

Omnomnomnom.

That same effing dilemma.

I can't remember when it was. Maybe a year ago. Maybe two.

I knew the father was leaving back to China. I wanted to say goodbye. I stood outside his door for ten minutes and I couldn't do it.

I still can't.

I hate goodbyes.

-

I'm sorry. Don't go.

_ML.

I don't even know a word for it.

I see my father about twice or thrice a year, for like three days each time. He doesn't seem like my father any more. He doesn't even know how to write my name.

But how can I blame him? Mom chases him out when he's back here. And not even by talking to him - she writes notes. They haven't talked for about the past 8 years. Heck, they haven't talked for about the past 10 years; the last of it was more yelling than anything.

I wonder how much more shit I can take before I explode again.

Maybe things will get better after this week [deja vu].

-

[0502100104] STOP ASKING ME TO BE THE MESSENGER DAMNIT. "Tell your father this." "Tell your mother this." TELL HIM/HER YOURSELF. I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH IT.

Yes.

I'll make sure of it.

-

But, yet again, what if i'm the one who's getting between me and the people I love?

Fort building.

Recently there has been a trend on MLIA where people build forts. Today, i finally decided to see what the fuss was all about. I spent about 15 minutes building my fort. And about an hour before that researching how to build forts.

It's basically my bed. It's a good thing i sleep on a sofabed, so all i had to do was prop up the head end of it, then put two chairs at the end, and draped my blanket over. Minimal effort, and the interior of the fort is already a mattress. I put my tablelamp in there as well, since i have a powerpoint nearby.

Check it out :D

Justin saw and he wanted one too, so we made one for him since he has the exact same bed and blanket. You probably think we're dorks, but i bet deep down you want one too :D

More dilemma.

Ever loved and hated a person so much at the same time?

So much so that you wanted to kill yourself - because you love the person so much you'd die for them, yet you're the one who hates them so much you wish they were dead?

Let the pictures do the talking.

Sunday night was spent travelling on a cold coach for 8 hours. It was supposed to leave at 10pm but got delayed for an hour. Subsequently when we finally reached the jetty to take the boat to Pulau Redang, we heard that the boat had broken down. Thankfully it was either not true, or not our boat.

It was different from the last time we went. There were significantly more boats than previously when we were there several years ago. That meant a deterioration in marine life. Sad ah.

The rest of the days were pretty much spent suntanning, swimming, snorkelling, eating, and sleeping. We stayed at Coral Redang Island Resort, which is a pretty small resort on a different beach from Laguna, where we previously stayed. It has a much nicer reef too. The one on Laguna's side is pretty much damaged after all the heavy sea traffic. I had a great time snorkelling. Saw a small yellow eel, and the usual colourful giant clams and fish. The corals were beautiful.

CRIR's facilities are pretty limited. The room is quite basic, with no television or bathtub. We slept early every night because there was nothing else to do. The food there is good, though. A good variety of tasty food everyday.

We walked around barefooted all the time because whenever we went into shops or to the resort restaurant, there'd be a sign saying, "No slippers allowed." So there wasn't much point in wearing any. I had told the boys to bring nicer clothes so we could take nice pictures while we were there, and here are some of the outcomes.

Like i said, there wasn't much to do. Everyday we walked all the way to the other side of the beach where Laguna and the More More Tea Inn was, and took photos. I have a whole set of photos with the huge flower heart, with both of us in different sets of clothes.

...My mom suggested that pose. She was also the one who took the picture. We never wanted to take a picture like that otherwise -.- And that's why we both look so weird.

Justin poses like that in almost all the photos i took of him.

So anyway, we spent the entire of the last day travelling. Woke up early to have our last breakfast, then took a speedboat back to the mainland. My mom chartered the boat because she didn't want to wake up super early just to catch the resort's boat.

Justin concluded the boat ride as, "Even if lifejackets weren't compulsory, after you sit on that boat you'd want one."

I told my mom, "You could've paid less for a roller coaster ride."

KS pretty much spent the whole boat ride clinging on to the railing. We thought we were going at a super fast speed until another bigger boat went right past us and off into the distance. Justin said it must've been going at the speed of OMGWTFBBQ.

We reached the mainland after an hour. None of us got seasick because the boat was going too fast for us to feel anything. From the jetty, we took a mini-van to the Kuala Trengganu airport, waited 2.5 hours for our flight, then took an hour to reach Kuala Lumpur's airport. Then we waited another 3 hours before taking another hour of flight back to Singapore. By the time we reached back, it was evening.

Overall the trip was alright. Nothing fantastic, but just a relaxing getaway. Mom says she's not going back there again. I probably wouldn't want to, either.

And last but not least,

Make your life CUILOURFUL.