Sometimes, all you need.

Today, I went for dinner with my poly friends. Only 3 of us turned up, but I guess it was good enough. Chatted a bit with Yuxiu after Yvonne left. I'll meet her for lunch again sometime soon, even though it's pretty far away. And will probably meet Von for Kbox soon too :)

Came home and decided to go on MSN to catch up with people I haven't talked to in a while. Chatted with Lydon, Tee Wee, Yen Leong, Wei Huang, Hannah and Ruby on MSN and Whatsapp. It's nice to chat with them again, and it also feels nice to be a listening ear rather than need one.

Also made plans with Quil/Brain, Elin/Crunchy and the Soul Funky OGs :D

This came as a much-needed reminder that I still have a life outside of what I was living. I guess i've just spent too long making myself readily available all the time. So often I find myself staying at home rotting, just in case I get mobilized. Was that worth it? I don't know. I'm just thankful my friends didn't decide to ditch me because of what I did.

Guys, you think having a recall period for NS is bad? Trying being a girl in love.

Social, 50 points.

So this fella came to talk to me on Facebook chat. Just one of those people whom I added for Mousehunt horn sounding. I never thought i'd bother to talk to any of them, considering the past few times some of them tried to talk to me was to ask me to send them gold.

It was a very simple chat, involving the usual 'where are you from' and 'how old are you' stuff. Kinda nice actually, since it's been ages since I chatted with anyone I don't know over the internet. The last I remember making internet friends was when I was 14 and chatting on the Neopets Fan Club chat boards.

Oh and of course the 5566 guild, as well as AuditionSEA friends. Those are locals though. Heh.

Maybe I should go chat with more of these people :)

:D

-phone rings-

Me: Hello?
Fabian: Hello, may I speak to Miss Loretta Sze?
Me: Yes, speaking.
Fabian: Oh, hi, this is The Great One speaking.

LOL.

What keeps me alive in school.

This morning, just like most other mornings, I woke up thinking of an excuse not to go to school. But I dragged myself out of bed anyway.

This lesson, just like most other 8.30am lessons, had a much smaller number of students in it. Luckily for me, some people I knew turned up, and I had company for that class. Then I got some stuff done, and went to meet SY for lunch, with her coursemates and YL. Thanks for the company :) I would've hated it if I had to be alone for the few hours.

Met J for his EAR801 lecture. I had expected to be doing my own work in there, but the lecture was pretty interesting and I ended up actually listening through most of it. The same didn't quite happen for the FIL250 lecture later in the evening. Between that, we took a walk to his ex-hall and took a few pictures with the Holga :)

It's kinda nice being in the same lessons as J.

Had dinner at JP, a cookies&cream milkshake, then went home. J missed his last train home just so he could send me back to Pasir Ris, despite the fact that all I was doing was sleeping next to him. Thanks <3

School's not so bad after all.

:))

Yesterday evening/night was nice. Thanks Baby :)

Today's my last day at NTUC. Gonna miss it loads.

On my way home just now, I bumped into Samuel. And apparently last year he had moved house... to the block next to mine 0_o Lol. Ironic how I usually bump into him at SMU instead of around the neighbourhood. So yeah I had company almost all the way back. Dope :D

Gonna go write some thank you cards then sleep!

...

It's difficult being a good... everything all at the same time.

Mom just snapped at me because she hasn't been seeing much of me.

I'm having family dinner tomorrow. Nobody touch me.

Soul Funky Memories: I Wanted You

For some reason, the song ‘I Wanted You’ started playing in my head this morning. I’d say stuck in my head, but that’s not exactly the right phrase to use when I’m actually playing it on repeat now.

I know that ever since I stepped into NTU, I’ve been saying that I hate the place, that I have no friends, and that I just want to get my degree and get out of there.

Yet, now, all I can think of is how much I’ll miss everything when it’s all over.

Not surprisingly, all the good memories I have of school involve Soul Funky. Heck, practically all the memories I have of school involve Soul Funky [J is included under Soul Funky]. Which is why I’ve always said that if it wasn’t for Soul Funky, I wouldn’t be in NTU. And I guess that’s who/what I’ll miss.

Here I am, sitting in the office doing work, but in my mind, I’m sitting at the table in Hall 16 studio that isn’t supposed to be there. It’s a mess with all our drinks, bags and laptops. It’s after Soul Funky training and TK has taken over with his hall dancers. We’re watching amusedly as Fabian does his stretching… for his Strawberry. We laugh at Bangbang doing the couple part and YB trying to learn the girl’s choreo. And after we’re finally done, we head to Macs for dinner. Then back home/hall.
Andofcoursethememorieswithyou.
The simple things that kept me alive.

Yeah.

We went to send Max off at the airport. I didn't spend a lot of time with him during the year he was here, but just the whole taking our last photos together, watching him take his bag and wave goodbye, not knowing whether we'll ever see him again... made me feel like crying.

Maybe I just really really hate goodbyes.

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Emo-ed on my way home. An unexpected phone call made me so touched that I cried. Thank you.

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Nosebled twice today. The second time I was just stuck in the bathroom trying to get the blood to stop for like 15 minutes. Annoying as hell.

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Tomorrow is the start of week 5. 6 more weeks to go.

Totally awesome.

Watched Sex & The City 2 with girlfriends and an entire cinema full of equally giggly females. No better way to enjoy the movie.

Love my babes :)

Memories.

This morning on the way home, I heard a song on the radio. I don't know what song it is, but I recognised it from the video that was made by the A&F IG main comm for our Celebration of Learning. And then I heard it again in Aunty Jo's car when we were returning home from dinner.

Unfortunately the video has been taken down, or I would've posted it here.

Poly life was awesomely fun. So carefree. It was really my turning point [though I ended up turning back during Uni, but that's besides the point]. Made so many friends and by the end of 3 years, almost everyone knew everyone else. Had time to have fun and still get work done properly. Heck, even working on projects together was fun.

A bit sad that after Uni year 1, I changed back to the quiet person I was in secondary school. It's a good thing I have Soul Funky to keep me insane though [yes, insane; not a typo]. And of course, in year 2 sem 2, school turned from a hellhole to a place of security.

Those Soul Funky trainings almost every night. Training hard together even though we were all exhausted. I miss it.

But I miss hall the most. The place where everything was perfect and even if it wasn't, it would end up being okay eventually. The simple happiness. I don't know why, but I miss it so, so much.

"Buildings crumble. People die. Friends move away. But your memory of them will always stand. And they will be as real there, inside you, as they were when they were standing next to you.

Your memories are real. They are the dreams of the past. And they will live with you always."

Great week :)

Had dinner with Bros on Tuesday, polyfriends on Wednesday, J on Thursday and SoulFunky on Friday. Dope stuff. A whole day of work isn't so bad when you have stuff like that to look forward to every day :)

Need moar meetups. Especially with Soul Funky loves.

:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEOYUNNING!

Happy :D

Past few days have been good :D

Been getting stuff back on track, although yes it's probably a little too late. But better than never. Studied more than I ever have in the past sem. Thanks to Clarence :)

And Yvonne and Sharon :)

And Samantha for the company when i'm not studying ^^

Trust.

Is when I can fall asleep for an hour in Coffee Bean at the airport, with my laptop on my lap and all my belongings on the table, and not have to worry about anything.

And can even dream about going overseas together with my friends.

I miss Taiwan.

Middle of the night and i'm emo-ing at the airport. Sounds familiar. At least this time i'm not alone.

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Everything has a lifespan. And when it meets mine, it simply boils down to this: who lives longer?

Random ramblings. Not awake. Not thinking straight.

Yay :)

Went out to catch Alice in Wonderland with SY [finally]. Freaked each other out because of how similar we were to each other, again. I think it's nice though :) After the movie we walked around but majority of the shops were closed. At 9pm. Zzz.

Check out a few fails that we spotted just now xD

SY & I :D

Soul Funky LOVE.

Soul Muggers

Soul Sleepy

Soul Gamblers

Soul Gay

Soul Awesome

Thankquil.

Best friends always.

:)

After the audition just now, the four of us [Tee Wee, Jian Wei, Junyi and myself] sat at Can B and chatted for a while. Lots of funny random stuff as usual, and touched on the topics of relationships and life in general.

And although I always complain about how long-winded Tee Wee is and stuff, I really respect him a lot. That wasn't always the case though. When he first took over from Fabian, I couldn't get used to his leadership style. Over the course of last semester and this one, he's proven his capabilities and gained my respect.

Not just on club matters. He has a lot of interesting/meaningful stuff to say about life and his words make me reflect. That, along with his leadership style, make me feel like he's the club's 'dad'. [Fabian was too soft.]

Today, I walked home feeling much more relaxed :)

Ah, Quil.

quil. ` -_- says:
jie
i very tired of life
._.
spyloretta. says:
that's two of us
let's get attached
then do all sorts of funny weird stuff
then jump in the sea and die
quil. ` -_- says:
yea we should
spyloretta. says:
...that was weird.
LOL.
quil. ` -_- says:
yep
incest

For future reference.

Apologizing doesn't mean that you are wrong and the other person is right.

It just means that you value your relationship more than your ego.