Random observation.

My blog posts are all so superficial compared to my LJ ones. Lol.

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Colleagues caught me with my cards. Ironically, that was when I had only one card sitting there among the mess of stuff on my table... not over the entire time I was doing 400 twirls.

When I told them I was going to dance one day after work, they thought I was going clubbing. And now they think I gamble or something.

Please let me pass this attachment -.-

Tiiiiiiime.

I don't know why but it's like i'm desperate for holidays to come. It's not even like I dislike work or anything; in fact i'm pretty happy with it. It's just that everyday it's like i'm counting down to 6pm, and every week i'm counting down to Friday.

Last day of June. 2.5 more weeks. 17 more days.

The weekend immediately after my attachment ends is gonna be a crazy one. Probably won't be able to get much sleep in but I don't really care. Soul Funky senior camp on Saturday and I won't be able to join in on Sunday because my family's driving up to Mt Ophir for one day. Epic start to my holidays.

Just that bit more.

Holga 135BC

Blue. Ordered. Cost a bomb. Should arrive this coming week.

Can't wait to get it! :D Then again, won't be free to use it until after my attachment. Which will be 3 weeks later.

And as usual, here's a list of things to do during my holidays. I usually do this when i'm having my exams, but since this time my attachment started immediately after my exams ended, there wasn't much point in making one then. So... here goes :D

- iWander 3
- Memory project
- Diary
- Soul Funky senior camp
- Hang out with babes/bros/polyfriends/soulfunky/J&friends/SSG&LFL
- Session [I always say but never do]
- PJ's House lessons?
- Pack my room
- Dye hair
- FINISH MY POKEMON GAME

Will probably come up with more soon.

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Oh. Planned timetable just now. It was a fitch. Need to continue again another day - -;

:)

Thanks Baby for being so patient with me even though I was being incredibly snappy. And for being so sweet :)

Wedding Dress

Soul Funky Memories: I Wanted You

For some reason, the song ‘I Wanted You’ started playing in my head this morning. I’d say stuck in my head, but that’s not exactly the right phrase to use when I’m actually playing it on repeat now.

I know that ever since I stepped into NTU, I’ve been saying that I hate the place, that I have no friends, and that I just want to get my degree and get out of there.

Yet, now, all I can think of is how much I’ll miss everything when it’s all over.

Not surprisingly, all the good memories I have of school involve Soul Funky. Heck, practically all the memories I have of school involve Soul Funky [J is included under Soul Funky]. Which is why I’ve always said that if it wasn’t for Soul Funky, I wouldn’t be in NTU. And I guess that’s who/what I’ll miss.

Here I am, sitting in the office doing work, but in my mind, I’m sitting at the table in Hall 16 studio that isn’t supposed to be there. It’s a mess with all our drinks, bags and laptops. It’s after Soul Funky training and TK has taken over with his hall dancers. We’re watching amusedly as Fabian does his stretching… for his Strawberry. We laugh at Bangbang doing the couple part and YB trying to learn the girl’s choreo. And after we’re finally done, we head to Macs for dinner. Then back home/hall.
Andofcoursethememorieswithyou.
The simple things that kept me alive.

Lol nostalgia.

The brother just showed me this randomly.

Aww Shaoweiiiii darling my ke ai de SSZQDSZLR *heartsheartsmuacksmuacks*.

Kidding. I wasn't like that even during the idol-chasing days.

Slash.

They scare me sometimes, the things that go through my head when i'm alone.

I'm not even talking about being emo. It's as though there's this dark part of me that surfaces once in a very long while. I know who it is.

Nothing much. Just walking home alone just now. It was drizzling. There was this guy following closely behind me. Some part of me just wanted to get robbed or attacked, so I could retaliate. Yeah. Like a few months ago I was hoping so much for something like this to happen, I even knew exactly what I wanted to say when it happened.
Ihavenothingtolose. &i'llbringyoudownwithme.
Then again, a few months ago was different.

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The moment I put the phone down, I started crying. I don't know why. It wasn't even like we said anything sad. Not even remotely.

I need to stabilise my emotions.

Night and Day.

The time I woke up this morning was, literally, the time baby went to sleep.

Just one more month. And my sleeping hours will turn upside-down as well. As of this moment it's still normal because I wake up at the same time... I just get about 3 to 4 hours of sleep every day that's all -.-

Week 7.

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Every year, on this day, I wonder whether I should.

Every year, on this day, I never.

I wish I had a photo to post up. But I don't.

Baby, baby, baby, ohh.

The previous post? Yeah it didn't happen. Reached home at 4.30am lol. Had a serious lack of sleep over the past week. But worth it :)

Met baby every single day over the past week, and none of it was pre-planned. Totally awesome :D

Yawn.

Everyday I tell myself that I should go straight home after work and catch up on lost sleep.
Thinking of korkor.
Everyday I go home later and later. I haven't reached home before midnight for the entire week. Maybe later I finally will. Maybe.

Ah.

Realised that I have an irrational fear of goodbyes.

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Had a happy day again today :) Went to meet J at Thecret Thkillth, had dinner at Thubway and then watched J and Derick work out before we left to catch a movie. It wath a thatithfying evening. More or lethh.

I thould thleep now.

Yeth. Thith potht therveth no other purpothe bethideth to annoy the thit out of you.

A-typical shopping experience.

"How does this look?"

-looks up for a second then back down at iPod, which has Pokemon on it- "Okay."

"Is it too tight?"

"Looks fine. Whatever you like."

"...Are you gonna say that I look good in everything anyway?"

"You look good in everything anyway."

"How's this?"

-barely looks up from game- "Mmhmm."

Legend:
Red - J
Blue - L

LOA.

Had a long discussion about the secret/law of attraction with Derick, Ghost and J just now. J eventually gave up because it was too tiring - -; Lol. I was pretty amused when I reached and heard what they were talking about. Decided not to say too much. Good thing I did, otherwise i'd probably end up exhausted like J =/

I actually have a few posts I wrote about my opinion on the law of attraction. Hmmm.

Anyway. Had a good time tonight. I'm happy :)

Just a little.

Emo.

Don't know why. Sunday blues maybe. Or maybe just tired. Or whatever.

Daddy just called back.

Random.

Leave baby alone for a while and he turns into a bolster zzz.

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Jailbroke my iPod today. Was tempted by Leon playing Pokemon on his GBA =/ So now i've got Pokemon on my iPod... but it's still not in my possession. But yay anyway :)

Sleep. Sentosa with SSG later!

1 month.

As usual, I have lots of stuff I want to say but don't know how to say it.

So i'm just gonna say... Thank you baby :)

We have done irreversible damage to JW.

JW21 this is gona be the most enriching HOLIDAY EVER! says:
so the printing place is at?
spy. says:
peace centre
next to pomo
JW21 this is gona be the most enriching HOLIDAY EVER! says:
porno?
haha
where is tt
spy. says:
...
P O M O
NOT P O R N O
omg jw -.-

Real.

"But really, all we want, and I speak for the entire human race here, is contact. Someone to let us know that we aren't alone. That the world isn't a dream and you and I really are happening at the same time, even if it's not in the same place. That this is real. You're really there. I'm really here. We're real.

This is real."

And this explains my life over the past few weeks. The need to be in constant contact with people. To be either texting or on the phone or with friends at every point in time. For fear of being alone.

Yet, you can have the entire world around you and still be completely alone.

I'm not emo-ing :) Just thinking.

:)

I thought I had a lot of things to tweet about. Then I sat there for some time, thinking of what to type. I ended up with just a smiley.

Thought maybe it was because 160 characters wasn't enough. So I tried to blog instead. In the end, I still don't know what to write. It's not that I have nothing to write about. I just really don't know how to put it in words.
Thank you baby.
:)

Yeah.

We went to send Max off at the airport. I didn't spend a lot of time with him during the year he was here, but just the whole taking our last photos together, watching him take his bag and wave goodbye, not knowing whether we'll ever see him again... made me feel like crying.

Maybe I just really really hate goodbyes.

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Emo-ed on my way home. An unexpected phone call made me so touched that I cried. Thank you.

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Nosebled twice today. The second time I was just stuck in the bathroom trying to get the blood to stop for like 15 minutes. Annoying as hell.

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Tomorrow is the start of week 5. 6 more weeks to go.

Saturday noon.

Waiting for J to wake up. And while i'm at it, the other J [my brother] has entered my room because his is being cleaned by the cleaning lady, plopped onto my bed and fell asleep.

Gtfo -.-

Anyway. Just saw this on IWTFY.

"We can answer any question we have, like how do actors make themselves cry, so we never sit in wonder and wonder at the wonder of the world, anymore.

And anything we watch can be paused, so we never argue about what just happened while we were talking, anymore.

We cannot hope that we might have just missed their call, because our phones are always with us and if they didn't call, they didn't call.

No protests in the streets, just a button marked 'like'.

No one reads stories aloud, unless you are a child.

No letters. Just bills."

Totally awesome.

Watched Sex & The City 2 with girlfriends and an entire cinema full of equally giggly females. No better way to enjoy the movie.

Love my babes :)

Sweet.

Saw a link to 6billionsecrets on Facebook by a friend. And was just looking through it while waiting for my hair to dry.

My hair is dry, and i'm still reading it.

"All I want is to wake up next to you every morning for the rest of my life. That's it."

For my accountant friends.

Got this in an email.

Our Birth is our Opening Balance
Our Death is our Closing Balance
Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities
Our Creative Ideas are our Assets

Heart is our Current Asset
Soul is our Fixed Asset
Brain is our Fixed Deposit
Thinking is our Current Account

Achievements are our Capital
Character & Morals, our Stock-in-Trade
Friends are our General Reserves
Values & Behavior are our Goodwill

Patience is our Interest Earned
Love is our Dividend
Children are our Bonus Issues
Education is Brands / Patents

Knowledge is our Investment
Experience is our Premium Account
The Aim is to Tally the Balance Sheet Accurately