Stress
- Characterized by overengagement
- Emotions are overreactive
- Produces urgency and hyperactivity
- Loss of energy
- Leads to anxiety disorders
- Primary damage is physical
- May kill you prematurely
Burnout
- Characterized by disengagement
- Emotions are blunted
- Produces helplessness and hopelessness
- Loss of motivation, ideals, and hope
- Leads to detachment and depression
- Primary damage is emotional
- May make life seem not worth living
I don't know which.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thoughts running through my head today.
- If i had a gun now, i'd shoot people.
- I don't know where i'm headed and even if i did, i don't think i could reach it.
- They don't like me. I don't care.
- Am i disagreeable, or...?
- I want pain.
- I feel like dying.
- I don't know where i'm headed and even if i did, i don't think i could reach it.
- They don't like me. I don't care.
- Am i disagreeable, or...?
- I want pain.
- I feel like dying.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
OCBC Cycle Singapore 2009
Merrill Lynch bull emo-ing. Drawing circles with its front hoof. Lol.
The view of the flyer from where we parked our bikes.
Aunty Jo.
Mom.
Justin.My butt hurts from sitting on the hard bicycle seat for 20km.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Lol.
loretta. ` live. love. believe. says:
photos uploaded onto facebook group liao
Fabian^9..Enchanted moment is still so vivid...Sweet Tapiocal Porridge !!! says:
lol saw
Fabian^9..Enchanted moment is still so vivid...Sweet Tapiocal Porridge !!! says:
nice shit lo
Fabian^9..Enchanted moment is still so vivid...Sweet Tapiocal Porridge !!! says:
shot
loretta. ` live. love. believe. says:
LOL
loretta. ` live. love. believe. says:
EPIC TYPO
photos uploaded onto facebook group liao
Fabian^9..Enchanted moment is still so vivid...Sweet Tapiocal Porridge !!! says:
lol saw
Fabian^9..Enchanted moment is still so vivid...Sweet Tapiocal Porridge !!! says:
nice shit lo
Fabian^9..Enchanted moment is still so vivid...Sweet Tapiocal Porridge !!! says:
shot
loretta. ` live. love. believe. says:
LOL
loretta. ` live. love. believe. says:
EPIC TYPO
Friday, February 20, 2009
10 more random things :D
I realised that the 25 random things thingy that i wrote wasn't exactly so random after all. Here are a few more things that most people don't know about.
1. I love feeling the sun on my back, and i love to see the sky when it's dark and gloomy, but not yet raining. The deepest impression of a dark sky was when i went wakeboarding after the rain.
2. I love going to Changi to watch the planes fly overhead. The last happy memory i had of my complete family was when we were there, doing just that. It was a Saturday and we went there after my electone lesson at Plaza Singapura. Our parents bought a Jolin Tsai CD for Justin and a SHIN CD for me, and i was happily listening to the CD all the way there and while i was there. This was probably 6 to 7 years ago.
3. I have a home telephone, but i don't use it at all. Even if i'm the only person at home and the phone rings, i won't pick it up. When i fill in forms that ask for contact details, i don't put my home phone number down.
4. In Sec 3, i tried to cut myself with my metal ruler in class, and freaked out my classmate sitting next to me. That started my self-injury habits. I never really managed to draw blood, so it was quite safe, and these crazy episodes didn't happen often. Maybe once in a few months. It lasted all the way until poly times. So during that period, if you saw me wearing a bracelet or long-sleeves, it was likely that i was trying to hide the scars. But i'm proud to say that i haven't done such a stupid thing for at least a year already :)
5. My motto 'Live Love Believe' means a lot to me, and has helped me grow a lot. I've become a much happier person :D This poses a slight problem because now i get a little annoyed at people who wallow in self-pity and misery; i can't understand why they can't look on the brighter side of things. But of course i still try to show as much empathy as i can.
6. Simple things like waking up to a bright morning, then opening up my window and seeing the green trees and the sun's sparkling reflections in the sea, can make me really happy :) Oh, and i think one important way of helping myself be happier is to tell myself what a great day it'll be in the morning, and go on to live a great day, rather than look back on the day when it ends and evaluate how good/bad it was. Sometimes it isn't easy since a lot of crap can happen in 24 hours, but i try :)
7. I love doing this sort of bulletin thingies, but i didn't want to post them on Friendster [when i was still using it] or on my blog, because it'd seem like stuff that those pufferfish girls on Friendster would do. You know those who blow up their cheeks like pufferfish when they take photos. So everytime i saw a bulletin on Friendster i'd copy it and do it in my Livejournal.
8. My Livejournal is friends-only, but actually most of the time i still filter it to Ruby and Benedict [and Quil, but he doesn't use LJ anymore anyway]. My LJ is a refuge when i have upsetting things that i don't want to post on my public blog. So in a way, i'm happy that i haven't posted many things in LJ for a long time already :D
9. I don't mind making people laugh at the expense of myself. Ironically, i hate embarrassing myself. I'm very want-face.
10. Sometimes, or with certain groups of people, i tend to do things/speak without thinking. Subsequently in retrospect, i'll think that i shouldn't have done/said what i did, and i'll start hating myself for it. I'll also think of what people would think of me and if what i did would alter their perceptions of me. But now i know i don't play such a significant role in peoples' lives that such things would matter; it's actually just the spotlight effect. So yeah :)
So here you go, 10 more random things that mean so much more than the 25 random things i posted up on Facebook :D
1. I love feeling the sun on my back, and i love to see the sky when it's dark and gloomy, but not yet raining. The deepest impression of a dark sky was when i went wakeboarding after the rain.
2. I love going to Changi to watch the planes fly overhead. The last happy memory i had of my complete family was when we were there, doing just that. It was a Saturday and we went there after my electone lesson at Plaza Singapura. Our parents bought a Jolin Tsai CD for Justin and a SHIN CD for me, and i was happily listening to the CD all the way there and while i was there. This was probably 6 to 7 years ago.
3. I have a home telephone, but i don't use it at all. Even if i'm the only person at home and the phone rings, i won't pick it up. When i fill in forms that ask for contact details, i don't put my home phone number down.
4. In Sec 3, i tried to cut myself with my metal ruler in class, and freaked out my classmate sitting next to me. That started my self-injury habits. I never really managed to draw blood, so it was quite safe, and these crazy episodes didn't happen often. Maybe once in a few months. It lasted all the way until poly times. So during that period, if you saw me wearing a bracelet or long-sleeves, it was likely that i was trying to hide the scars. But i'm proud to say that i haven't done such a stupid thing for at least a year already :)
5. My motto 'Live Love Believe' means a lot to me, and has helped me grow a lot. I've become a much happier person :D This poses a slight problem because now i get a little annoyed at people who wallow in self-pity and misery; i can't understand why they can't look on the brighter side of things. But of course i still try to show as much empathy as i can.
6. Simple things like waking up to a bright morning, then opening up my window and seeing the green trees and the sun's sparkling reflections in the sea, can make me really happy :) Oh, and i think one important way of helping myself be happier is to tell myself what a great day it'll be in the morning, and go on to live a great day, rather than look back on the day when it ends and evaluate how good/bad it was. Sometimes it isn't easy since a lot of crap can happen in 24 hours, but i try :)
7. I love doing this sort of bulletin thingies, but i didn't want to post them on Friendster [when i was still using it] or on my blog, because it'd seem like stuff that those pufferfish girls on Friendster would do. You know those who blow up their cheeks like pufferfish when they take photos. So everytime i saw a bulletin on Friendster i'd copy it and do it in my Livejournal.
8. My Livejournal is friends-only, but actually most of the time i still filter it to Ruby and Benedict [and Quil, but he doesn't use LJ anymore anyway]. My LJ is a refuge when i have upsetting things that i don't want to post on my public blog. So in a way, i'm happy that i haven't posted many things in LJ for a long time already :D
9. I don't mind making people laugh at the expense of myself. Ironically, i hate embarrassing myself. I'm very want-face.
10. Sometimes, or with certain groups of people, i tend to do things/speak without thinking. Subsequently in retrospect, i'll think that i shouldn't have done/said what i did, and i'll start hating myself for it. I'll also think of what people would think of me and if what i did would alter their perceptions of me. But now i know i don't play such a significant role in peoples' lives that such things would matter; it's actually just the spotlight effect. So yeah :)
So here you go, 10 more random things that mean so much more than the 25 random things i posted up on Facebook :D
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Random updates.
No haze today! I can see Ubin clearly :D [Just across the sea.] 
Yuan Bin's new shoes. Damn. My recess break hasn't started yet, but i have no lessons today and tomorrow. And since training today is postponed, i don't have to be in school at all for both days! SHIOK. I wanna go to Chek Jawa again. If only i could find someone to accompany me.
Then again maybe not. OCBC Cycle's on Sunday. Crap.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Tagged by Joanna.
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blog.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz. Those that are tagged cannot refuse.
C) Continue this game by tagging 8 other people.
1. What have you been doing recently?
Soul Funky stuff. That's about 90% of what i do in school.
2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
When i want to be left alone. There are those times.
3. What happened at 10am today?
I was in AA102 tutorial.
4. When did you last cry?
Probably while watching the Benjamin Button movie last Saturday.
5. Believe in fate/destiny?
I believe in Fate.
6. What do you want in your life now?
More time i suppose. But everything's great as it is :)
7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
I don't carry an umbrella.
8. What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
S... leep.
9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
Black shorts.
10. What's the nicest things in your inbox?
Nothing much.
11. Do you tend to make your relationship complicated?
Nope. Simplicity of Happiness.
12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
Not at the moment; sometimes i wear Justin's clothes though.
13. What was the last movie you caught?
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. It might be the next i'm catching too ;D
14. What are you proud of?
Soul Funky :)
15. What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
Dunno. After i changed my phone i lost them.
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Viva La Vida.
17. Do you have any nicknames?
They call me Ta.
18. What does the newest text say?
"Going to u go over 1st ok?" - Fabian
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
Sometime around 2am.
20. Are you currently happy?
Yeah!
21. Who gives you the best advise?
Mom.
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
I don't eat whipped cream.
23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
I didn't. My phone's problematic. But Fabian tried to call me over MSN, it didn't work. My lappie's problematic too.
24. Is something bugging you now?
Not at the moment. It's recess! :D
25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Yuan Bin. That full-of-crap fella just came over.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz. Those that are tagged cannot refuse.
C) Continue this game by tagging 8 other people.
1. What have you been doing recently?
Soul Funky stuff. That's about 90% of what i do in school.
2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
When i want to be left alone. There are those times.
3. What happened at 10am today?
I was in AA102 tutorial.
4. When did you last cry?
Probably while watching the Benjamin Button movie last Saturday.
5. Believe in fate/destiny?
I believe in Fate.
6. What do you want in your life now?
More time i suppose. But everything's great as it is :)
7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
I don't carry an umbrella.
8. What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
S... leep.
9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
Black shorts.
10. What's the nicest things in your inbox?
Nothing much.
11. Do you tend to make your relationship complicated?
Nope. Simplicity of Happiness.
12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
Not at the moment; sometimes i wear Justin's clothes though.
13. What was the last movie you caught?
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. It might be the next i'm catching too ;D
14. What are you proud of?
Soul Funky :)
15. What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
Dunno. After i changed my phone i lost them.
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Viva La Vida.
17. Do you have any nicknames?
They call me Ta.
18. What does the newest text say?
"Going to u go over 1st ok?" - Fabian
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
Sometime around 2am.
20. Are you currently happy?
Yeah!
21. Who gives you the best advise?
Mom.
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
I don't eat whipped cream.
23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
I didn't. My phone's problematic. But Fabian tried to call me over MSN, it didn't work. My lappie's problematic too.
24. Is something bugging you now?
Not at the moment. It's recess! :D
25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Yuan Bin. That full-of-crap fella just came over.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Bear in the Big Blue House.
I was searching up Elmo's World on Youtube for my project [don't ask; it's a long story], when i saw this link that made me immediately click it.
One of my favourite shows when i was a kid. Shows after teletubbies if i'm not wrong. Justin and i used to turn our chairs upside-down and sit with our arms resting on the legs of the chair, and watch these shows.
I also liked Little Bear, and this horse show where the main character was a horse named Thawra [i can't remember the title]. Not to mention Hi-5. Justin and i used to memorise all their songs.
K back to adulthood.
Monday, February 16, 2009
...
If only we were born knowing what we wanted in life and how to go about getting it. I don't think it's much different being born physically old and regressing, or the right way around. Both seem to just peak at a point in adulthood and go back down again.
To be born with the wisdom of what made [or would make, in the case of regressing] a life worth living seems to be much more important than that.
I guess that's where the phrase 'Life can only be understood backward, but must be lived forward' comes from.
Am i doing the right things? I'm living life great now; i'm loving each moment. These few days i constantly ask myself, "Would i be happy if i died now?" It's either i've lost the concept of death, or i've really lived to no regrets. I certainly don't fear it.
Movies will only be movies. Things are just not as simple as they portray. Although there's the life i want to live, there's also the life i have to live, which i haven't been living, and which i have to catch up with now. I'm still a student after all, and i haven't been fulfilling my role as one.
Yeah i'm pretty sick of studying. I can't be so many things at once.
-
Haze is getting worse. Yesterday morning i couldn't see Pulau Ubin out my window. Today i can't even see Pasir Ris Park.
To be born with the wisdom of what made [or would make, in the case of regressing] a life worth living seems to be much more important than that.
I guess that's where the phrase 'Life can only be understood backward, but must be lived forward' comes from.
Am i doing the right things? I'm living life great now; i'm loving each moment. These few days i constantly ask myself, "Would i be happy if i died now?" It's either i've lost the concept of death, or i've really lived to no regrets. I certainly don't fear it.
Movies will only be movies. Things are just not as simple as they portray. Although there's the life i want to live, there's also the life i have to live, which i haven't been living, and which i have to catch up with now. I'm still a student after all, and i haven't been fulfilling my role as one.
Yeah i'm pretty sick of studying. I can't be so many things at once.
-
Haze is getting worse. Yesterday morning i couldn't see Pulau Ubin out my window. Today i can't even see Pasir Ris Park.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again." - Benjamin Button [in a letter to his daughter]
"Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?" - Mrs. Maple
"Along the way you bump into people who make a dent on your life. Some people were born to sit by a river. Some get struck by lightning. Some have an ear for music. Some are artists. Some swim. Some know buttons. Some know Shakespeare. Some are mothers. And some people, dance. " - Benjamin Button
I love the movie. It tells so much about life, death, and perspective, through a whole random bunch of love, sex, war and lightning.
And Brad Pitt is HOT. [Only when he's playing the 40 to 30-year-old role.]
"Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?" - Mrs. Maple
"Along the way you bump into people who make a dent on your life. Some people were born to sit by a river. Some get struck by lightning. Some have an ear for music. Some are artists. Some swim. Some know buttons. Some know Shakespeare. Some are mothers. And some people, dance. " - Benjamin Button
I love the movie. It tells so much about life, death, and perspective, through a whole random bunch of love, sex, war and lightning.
And Brad Pitt is HOT. [Only when he's playing the 40 to 30-year-old role.]
Valentine's Day :D
We both agreed that it was the best Valentine's Day so far :)
Caught the Benjamin Button movie at Suntec. I think it was a great movie, but unfortunately we arrived late and missed like the first 10 to 20 minutes of the show. If anyone wants to catch it, let me know! I want to watch it again :D
So after the movie, we walked around Suntec for half an hour, since we had time to kill before we went for dinner. We went into Toys R Us, and emerged with Patrick Star :D Thanks Boy!
KS is broke now ):
Caught the Benjamin Button movie at Suntec. I think it was a great movie, but unfortunately we arrived late and missed like the first 10 to 20 minutes of the show. If anyone wants to catch it, let me know! I want to watch it again :D
So after the movie, we walked around Suntec for half an hour, since we had time to kill before we went for dinner. We went into Toys R Us, and emerged with Patrick Star :D Thanks Boy!
The ambience is lovely, especially from evening to night. It makes you feel like you're having dinner in some romantic exotic place... if you don't look across the road and see all the buildings.
Love.
There were Valentine's Day specials, and we ordered the Bali set since we're both seafood lovers. Comes with house cocktail and dessert. We're not very big eaters, so we didn't manage to whole main course. The food's alright; nothing really special, but it's really the ambience that makes it all so nice.
KS is broke now ):
Friday, February 13, 2009
Don't go.
Some people were fiddling around with Youtube during the break in our lesson this morning. It nearly made me cry in class. Not that the song really applies to me or anything.
Each time you leave, i'm afraid i won't see you until god-knows-when, and yet i can't bring myself to say even a simple goodbye.
Love and Happiness... in the simplest sense.
The day before, during the Locking session, there was a moment when i looked at Soul Funky [crew, a.k.a. the committee members] and suddenly felt this warm, nice feeling.
Just watching them dance, smile, do all sorts of dumb and funny stuff, etc. makes me feel happy. It's like puppy love - i don't mean infatuations - i'm talking about the feeling like you're watching a little puppy frolic around and there's just this sense of... simple happiness i guess. I don't know how to put it.
I love Soul Funky. I know it's not the first time i'm saying it, but each time i say it, i really mean it :)
Just watching them dance, smile, do all sorts of dumb and funny stuff, etc. makes me feel happy. It's like puppy love - i don't mean infatuations - i'm talking about the feeling like you're watching a little puppy frolic around and there's just this sense of... simple happiness i guess. I don't know how to put it.
I love Soul Funky. I know it's not the first time i'm saying it, but each time i say it, i really mean it :)
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
So excited.
Waiting for the right time to go over to hall 16 for Locking. No i'm not really excited about that.
What i'm really excited about is the day Soul Funky's gonna wear nice nice then go around all the nice nice places in NTU and take nice nice photos! :D I'm not sure if that day's gonna come, but still.
I already have a list of places in mind! :D:D:D
On top of ADM, top floor of any of the school buildings, hall 16 studio, the secluded area below Can A that we practise at sometimes, the long staircase on the outside of Nanyang Audi [not the North-South spine staircase], the highest point in NTU [i don't know exactly where it is yet], or just any really cool place [usually the roof of any building]!
Yay :)
Okay time to go liao.
What i'm really excited about is the day Soul Funky's gonna wear nice nice then go around all the nice nice places in NTU and take nice nice photos! :D I'm not sure if that day's gonna come, but still.
I already have a list of places in mind! :D:D:D
On top of ADM, top floor of any of the school buildings, hall 16 studio, the secluded area below Can A that we practise at sometimes, the long staircase on the outside of Nanyang Audi [not the North-South spine staircase], the highest point in NTU [i don't know exactly where it is yet], or just any really cool place [usually the roof of any building]!
Yay :)
Okay time to go liao.
Monday, February 9, 2009
How KS freaked his mom out.
His mom: -very excitedly- Ehh... 你跟Loretta 的号码开头奖 leh! 3116.
[Ehh... Yours and Loretta's numbers came out as top prize in the lottery leh!]
KS: Oh.
His mom: 那天你还在讲要结婚 hor?
[Weren't you just talking about getting married the other day?]
KS: 没有啊 我讲要生孩子而已.
[No, i only said we were going to have kids.]
[Ehh... Yours and Loretta's numbers came out as top prize in the lottery leh!]
KS: Oh.
His mom: 那天你还在讲要结婚 hor?
[Weren't you just talking about getting married the other day?]
KS: 没有啊 我讲要生孩子而已.
[No, i only said we were going to have kids.]
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I can't decide.
They're all about the same price. I'm interested in getting something like this but not sure how i'll look wearing it. I've only tried one like this in Esprit which costs like close to $100 and i'm not prepared to spend that much -.- Although it's a really nice piece.
Trying to get something to wear for Michael's item but if it doesn't go then i'll just get it for myself :D YB and i are intending to wear checkered shirts, thus the first picture on top, but i'm not sure how it'll look on me.
I like the third one the most, and the second one as well but i think it'll be weird to wear it in Singapore. Help me decide! :)
Friday, February 6, 2009
Lol doper.
This is a video that one of the teams in my OB class created for their presentation. I think it's such an innovative idea and absolutely awesome. Not to mention funny. My tutor's name is John Beck [i have no idea how it was such a coincidence that the name of the guy in the case study was John Becker; honestly it wasn't planned at all] and yes that's his face they're using.
Whole thing's probably a little hard to understand unless you've read the case study =/
Wa stress. My group's the last one. Standard sure gonna be pushed up damn high by the time we present ):
Lol dope.
After class today, i went for a talk by a speaker from EY. Yong Kai was there too. After that he said he was going back to his hall or something, and i went to have lunch at Can B with my classmates.
I bumped into Fabian at Can B; he was buying his food and i asked him to help me buy too lol. Thanks Fabby ^^ Then Yong Kai called and said he was coming over with a truckload of food. Just as he reached, Fabian had just finished buying food, so i went to help him take, and when we both turned back to face Yong Kai, Esther was there too.
Mini SWu meeting -.-
Lalala i'm happy. Feels like i'm momentarily surrounded by all my friends in NTU because my classmates and one OG mate was there too :D
I'm just slacking here in the lab waiting until 4pm so i can go and prepare for the audition later. Not sure if i actually hope for us to get through or not =X
I bumped into Fabian at Can B; he was buying his food and i asked him to help me buy too lol. Thanks Fabby ^^ Then Yong Kai called and said he was coming over with a truckload of food. Just as he reached, Fabian had just finished buying food, so i went to help him take, and when we both turned back to face Yong Kai, Esther was there too.
Mini SWu meeting -.-
Lalala i'm happy. Feels like i'm momentarily surrounded by all my friends in NTU because my classmates and one OG mate was there too :D
I'm just slacking here in the lab waiting until 4pm so i can go and prepare for the audition later. Not sure if i actually hope for us to get through or not =X
Thursday, February 5, 2009
=S
Last semester, when i was alone in school with no friends and hardly any company wherever i went, i hoped so badly that i could spend every day with my friends in Soul Funky.
Be careful what you wish for. It may just come true.
Lol. I'm just kidding. I love Soul Funky :D Jiayou for all the upcoming performances!
Be careful what you wish for. It may just come true.
Lol. I'm just kidding. I love Soul Funky :D Jiayou for all the upcoming performances!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Potential interview scenario
Interviewer: Everyone's got a degree nowadays. You're all the same. What makes you stand out?
Ta: My outstanding perseverance.
Interviewer: Hah. Elaborate.
Ta: For a certain period of my school days, i used to travel 2 hours to school everyday, reach at 8.30am and work till i leave school at 10.30pm, and spend 2 more hours travelling home again. I reach home after midnight and start my homework, sleep at about 2am, then wake up at 6am again for a repeat of the cycle.
Interviewer: You're expected to lead this kind of lifestyle when you're doing audit work you know.
Ta: Yes, but at least audit work doesn't last for 3 months straight.
I'm hoping this schedule tones down a bit after the two performances this week, but i highly doubt it. Please give me the strength to overcome all this.
Ta: My outstanding perseverance.
Interviewer: Hah. Elaborate.
Ta: For a certain period of my school days, i used to travel 2 hours to school everyday, reach at 8.30am and work till i leave school at 10.30pm, and spend 2 more hours travelling home again. I reach home after midnight and start my homework, sleep at about 2am, then wake up at 6am again for a repeat of the cycle.
Interviewer: You're expected to lead this kind of lifestyle when you're doing audit work you know.
Ta: Yes, but at least audit work doesn't last for 3 months straight.
I'm hoping this schedule tones down a bit after the two performances this week, but i highly doubt it. Please give me the strength to overcome all this.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Love.
Lately, KS and i have been talking about getting married and having a family. I mean, we've talked about such stuff for years, but recently the plans are getting more concrete.
It made me realise how serious we were about this relationship, and about each other. We've never done stuff like breaking up and patching back; the closest we ever got was perhaps to take a break from each other for a while to discover what we really wanted in a relationship. Even when our quarrels get very heated, we never mention wanting to leave each other.
Yes, we do think of doing so, but we never really said it. I'm glad we're both people who can think about relationships in a mature, sensible way, even though this relationship is the first for both of us.
A friend asked me how i knew i loved him. I told her that if anything happens to him, i'll be very worried. But that's not just it. It's so much more. I enjoy being with him, even through all the horrible arguments particularly during his NS years. I certainly can't live without him. And after all these years, we've moulded ourselves to be perfect for each other. Even though we're so different, which causes many misunderstandings and problems, our love for each other has kept this relationship alive.
Compromise, but not to the extent that you are blindly sacrificing.
Respect each other, no matter how different you may be; show understanding.
Trust yourself, trust each other, trust the relationship and its future.
Love. The more you give, the more you will receive.
Cross-posted to Spycks.
It made me realise how serious we were about this relationship, and about each other. We've never done stuff like breaking up and patching back; the closest we ever got was perhaps to take a break from each other for a while to discover what we really wanted in a relationship. Even when our quarrels get very heated, we never mention wanting to leave each other.
Yes, we do think of doing so, but we never really said it. I'm glad we're both people who can think about relationships in a mature, sensible way, even though this relationship is the first for both of us.
A friend asked me how i knew i loved him. I told her that if anything happens to him, i'll be very worried. But that's not just it. It's so much more. I enjoy being with him, even through all the horrible arguments particularly during his NS years. I certainly can't live without him. And after all these years, we've moulded ourselves to be perfect for each other. Even though we're so different, which causes many misunderstandings and problems, our love for each other has kept this relationship alive.
Compromise, but not to the extent that you are blindly sacrificing.
Respect each other, no matter how different you may be; show understanding.
Trust yourself, trust each other, trust the relationship and its future.
Love. The more you give, the more you will receive.
Cross-posted to Spycks.
Updates.
Haven't been updating much due to my busy schedule; leaving home early in the morning when the sky's still dark, and returning home after midnight when the sky's also dark. I need my sunlight.
So anyway, last Thursday Michael came for our second JDC performance training. I don't think i blogged anything about the first, but then again, nothing much really happened. Last Thursday, we managed to cover about 1 and a half minutes of the song. Pretty fast, i think. The whole thing seems really fun, but we've only done Popping so far. Hope he'll throw in some Locking soon.
Yuan Bin's my husband -.- I decided that i wanted to be something more normal this time [as compared to a thief last time zzz] and so i grabbed the wife role. The 2 eights that Michael gave our pair turned out to be something cutesy, plus we were stuck together for the whole thing like siamese twins. At least the other couple's choreo was a bit more normal.
The next day when the Soul Funky committee met up to practise, both Yuan Bin and i were wearing pink tops and white bottoms -__________-" I swear it was totally unplanned.
Wondering what costume i should wear for that item, since i certainly can't be popping in a dress.
The other item's almost complete, which is good since our first performance for it will be this coming Thursday. And again on Friday. And there isn't much time between now and Thursday for all of us to meet up and practise.
K time to go catch up on schoolwork.
So anyway, last Thursday Michael came for our second JDC performance training. I don't think i blogged anything about the first, but then again, nothing much really happened. Last Thursday, we managed to cover about 1 and a half minutes of the song. Pretty fast, i think. The whole thing seems really fun, but we've only done Popping so far. Hope he'll throw in some Locking soon.
Yuan Bin's my husband -.- I decided that i wanted to be something more normal this time [as compared to a thief last time zzz] and so i grabbed the wife role. The 2 eights that Michael gave our pair turned out to be something cutesy, plus we were stuck together for the whole thing like siamese twins. At least the other couple's choreo was a bit more normal.
The next day when the Soul Funky committee met up to practise, both Yuan Bin and i were wearing pink tops and white bottoms -__________-" I swear it was totally unplanned.
Wondering what costume i should wear for that item, since i certainly can't be popping in a dress.
The other item's almost complete, which is good since our first performance for it will be this coming Thursday. And again on Friday. And there isn't much time between now and Thursday for all of us to meet up and practise.
K time to go catch up on schoolwork.
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